work in progress

sal...thanks for turning a kinda ok piece into a freaky fabulous fun piece.

So I lied.. I didnt go to bed like I should have. Bad me, no more peppermints.
But anyway, I was browsing through some of the art on the other boards, and I found some really nasty flames.. And it shocked me to see the way that some people acted. There was so much hatred, and everyone seemed to have forgotten what art really is.
It's not some pretty thing to be looked at. It can be downright ugly and unfinished looking, and it can still be an amasing piece.
The instructor for an oil painting class I took not long ago told me that the real art is in the process(sp?) of the painting, not the end results.
Art is an outlet, art is where people(well I do at least) get away from all the things that the world weighs them down with. Art is where I pick up shattered dreams and make them real, at least to look at, and it's also the place I put my negative emotions so that they dont end up hurting me
The words in this image were inspired by the deep sence of not belonging that I felt due to some of the things I read when browsing. I'm still new here, and I'm probably one of those people who take up too much space. And I don't talk very often either, usually only when I post a drawing. That sense of not belonging triggered the greater sense of not belonging at all in society. I'm not Christian, and some of the things that mainstream Christians have done over the ages frightens me, it frightens me to no end. Countless innocent people died durring the time of the witch trials. And although modern times restrict what people can do to eachother, people who dont follow everyone else are shunned a little at best, and hated at worst. Now I'm not saying that all Christians are bad or mean, I know plenty of really cool people who are Christian, but when people go too far it can be intimidating and/or offensive.
Anyway, I'm rambling on far too much, I'll just write my snippet of unfinnished poetry now and be off x_x bloody hec it's 5 am, I am sooo dead.
This is dedicated to anyone who is Pagan(not devil worshipers, earth worshipers) and to anyone of uncertain or non-straight sexual orientation.
If I said I wasn't Christian
Would you throw me in a lake?
Would you beat me and accuse me
If I said I wasn't Straight?
I'd offer to ease your pain,
To lend a listening ear,
But all you speak is hatred
of me and all my kin.
If only I could heal my wounds with words..
Would you burn me at the steak,
If I said I wasn't Christian, or
If I said I wasnt Straight?
(only parts of that are in the picture)
Zhai'helleva *passes out due to lack of sleep*

yonge street (starting in toronto ont.),is the longest road in the world. this rock formation is on hiway 11 about 1/2 mile from the very end of it, i tried to get the texture of the rocks but they just keep looking fluffy...sigh, any suggestions? i used to live 5 blocks up and one block over from the very foot of it...fabulously exciting tidbit of info eh?

this one was my official nemisis. never did get it to look the way i wanted but it was sitting in my folder unfinished for so long i had to do some work on it and call it finished

silly

...sorry...

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for lack of inspriation and the desperate need to draw i decided to share a bit of my world with yas..this is exactly what i look at each morning, i would never do a self portrait, so instead a glimpse of my home....welcome :o)

omg. i used to love 2draw. back when i signed up, even though i sucked times 10, i got to know all the people and it was like the family i never had. and now that im really stressed out with crap all these new people come along and all that ever happens on the forum besides collab requests are arguments over petty points and rules and crap.

yeah. i suppose im not much better. just pisses me off that what calmed me down before only pisses me off now. its so much of a chore to finish drawing lately. its just not fun anymore.

*goes to cry in the dark*