ITS FUNGUS!!ok, a person hiding in fungus, PLUS, this is my mental state lately.i'mm getting hit by my entire life,in old age,which is very unpleasant.it stinks; most old people have to look back, cuz there's no forwards.And yah know what?I don't think there's any God like people like to believe.It may just be a feat of "higher physics" evolution, science, and "systems."No huge God lurking anywhere. Why not? it's child-like to believe "God" is the way we want it.--he listens to us pray, ect. Who ever,whatever, is out there, is ignoring our petty existances. Do we notice the worms in the earth?NAH!! there may be no meaning to life at all.I highly suspect that. That does not, however, discontent me, because i LIKE THE SCIENCE. it's still a miracle to me."Higher physics" as God, does not bother me.I prefer that to any childish type of religion. To each his own!! :) I accept the universe just the way it is.