I don't completely understand where I'm going or what I'm trying to accomplish. I don't think far into the future or anything. Right now I'm not even sure of everything that going on around me. I don't know why I do the things I'm doing. I don't think I'm enjoying myself either. Though I do find enjoyment in little things like sipping a glass of a fine drink at just the right time of day and weather. Or listening to a classic tune while relaxing and smoking some bud in a favourite spot. Will these things help accelerate my growing and learning? Probably not. But I don't know what I'm growing towards so what do I do? I don't know, but I'm really not motivated to find out, or do anything of the sort.