just deleted that picture of antonio banderas i'd been working on forever just when i'd gotten the colors right (which is what's up with those three blobs, they were still in the applet and i wanted to preserve them), and being incredibly OCD i'm now freaking out about it. bleah. plus a thousand other things and all in all, i'm feeling fat and talentless and life just looks shitty. i'm going to go to bed.